Trying
ANGEV · Single · Out now
Fatherhood without a blueprint. A new dad hears his own father in his voice and fights not to pass the scars on. Rolling drum & bass carries a confession: I'm just a man with a shaking hand, still a boy inside, trying to be enough.
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Credits
Artist: ANGEV
Release: Single
Label: Fragmented Music
Lyrics
You look at me, like I know it all
But I'm still learning, how not to fall
Tiny shoes by the door, larger than they look
I shelf my fear, like a torn-up book
I was raised on doubt I wear it well
Now I'm out here trying to raise myself
I'm trying, I'm trying to be enough
(I'm trying, I'm trying) when the nights get rough
I'm just a man with a shaking hand
(I'm just a boy) trying to be your dad
I hear my father, in my own voice.
Same old scarring, same old noise.
When I yell at my reflection,
I'm yelling at him too.
Afraid that his absense, will distract me from you.
But you look at me, and I can't understand.
How anyone could hold this love, and let it leave their hands.
And sometimes I wonder, when you look into my eyes.
Did I FAIL to look at him like that, when I was your size?
I'm trying, I'm trying to be enough
(I'm trying, I'm trying) when the nights get rough
I'm just a man with a shaking hand
(I'm just a boy) trying to be your dad
If I go quiet don't take it hard
I'm learning courage in the dark
You don't need perfect you need me here
So I'll keep showing up through every fear
I'm trying, I'm trying to be enough
(I'm trying, I'm trying) when the nights get rough
I'm just a man with a shaking hand
(I'm just a boy) trying to be your dad
I'm still learning how to stay
Still learning day by day
(I'm still learning)
I'm still learning
